May the 1st today... that is incredible that 4 full months have been and gone already.
What a week - it was a mix of good and bad for me . I met up with lots of clients, lots of good results, fantastic workouts and did some brilliant choreography. Julie Harris and I worked on her routine which is will be performing in Australia and it turned out wicked. I think you may well see a different Julie on stage this time..
Another brilliant thing, Jordie my son had to lose at least 4 kgs in 2 weeks to make his grade in rugby. He lost 4.5kgs by training and increasing his cardio, walking to school and stopping all the gimmicky snacks that he so loves. The brilliant thing was that Jordies goal of being in this particular team was all he needed for motivation to lose the weight. Mark and I did not have to listen to him begging for food, or moaning about exercising. he just got on and did what he had to do. I finally see a piece of me in him and I am so so proud. He weighed in this morning 500 grams less than the goal he needed. What a boy! He enjoyed his Maccas after weigh in and before his game.

Now the bad stuff.

Bad being the terrible lack of sleep that I have had this week and last week.. Now I know this sound trivial but a few weeks ago I started waking up in the early hours with a numb hand. I was just thinking that I was lying on it or something silly like that and night after night I would try to keep it away from under my pillow or under my body... Now I lay on my back alot ( haha stop it) but do find myself rolling over on my side with my arm under the pillow hugging it tightly so I had to make a huge effort to stop doing that in my subconcious. Actually I have been sleeping quite badly over the last year or so anyway, whereas I used to be such a heavy sleeper but I do wake heaps of times during the night and are really restless so I am constantly aware of how I sleep or dont sleep.

So anyway, where I was initially waking at 4 or 5am with 1 numb aching hand, I began waking alot earlier, around 1 or 2am with the most painful throbbing aching hands and arms or ususually 1 hand. It takes walking around the house for 10-15mins to get it to settle then it starts up again once I go back to bed. On 3 nights I have stayed up the whole night, and have once slept in the chair in the lounge and another time time tried to sleep sitting up in bed... I have tried everything.. As well as sleeping sitting up, I have tried hanging my arm down, holding it up, clamping it between my legs and squeezing hard out (didnt do a thing for my hand lol), painfully holding onto ice cubes, then running it under hot water, massaging, thumping hell out it,standing on it ( was like playing private twister)taking voltaren/pain killers and finally getting substantially pissed before bed - I have tried everything:

NOTE:I think the best night was the 2 vodkas before bed and the clamping remedy..

For the last 5 days or so the tingling and numbness ( Im still talking about the hand) has been happening during the day, which makes it hard to keep carrying my clients weights around.
So yesterday I desparately headed to the physio and to my doctor yesterday.

First off was Physio where the poor physio was horrified when he looked at my body and said that my body was so out of line he was surprised I had ever won a contest ( haha). The way he described my lack of alignment made me feel like an totally abnormal freak. I thought he was going to scream and run out of the room, he had such a look on his face. It was as if if my lower body was twisted round the other direction or something equally frigtening.
Mmmph freaky tart....

I have been having trouble with my knee when running and I have pulled my calf muscle alot lately so that would be a result of my spine being out of line. I had had a few chest pains to which was a result of the spine being out, and he basically thinks my body is one big mess that he will enjoy working on. So his recommendation is no more running for me, or to certainly cut it down which I have already, and for me to accept that coming up 50 years old, I cannot treat my body like a 30 years olds anymore. Now that is a big ask for me.
So I went from feeling depressed about my numb hand to being depressed about my whole body...lol..

On top of that he He told me to "Pull my head in" and that was not said in the mental concept.. He means physically.. So evidently
I stick my head out further than most people - like a turtle or something coming out of its shell.
And he thinks it could be cos i insist on wearing halter neck bras so today I have worn none..lol. Lets see if that makes a difference. So really the only good thing about me is I have good muscle, and naturally good posture cos I keep my shoulders back, and chest out all of the time but the rest of my body is pretty well fucked..

Ok so next on the list of people to solve my probs.

I went to the doctors where I was treated to another form of mental insult..
Yes I was given the the "Yur going through Menopause talk" albeit very nicely. That will explain the funny little hot flushes I have at odd times which are not a result of any fat burners etc, and how I get hot cold hot cold at work etc.

So now I am booked in for tests next week that cover everything and will tell me where I am with my cycle. So when I have things confirmed I will tell you more. So the doctor thinks my numbness could of been caused by my neck being out or my back not aligned, or it could be carpal tunnell which I will need to be tested for as well. God I got some serious work ahead of me. So until I get all of this sorted out, I cannot contest train, but I have decided on an International event next year June/July so will get myself sorted over the next month or so and I plan on getting back into hard out training the 2nd week of June. She wanted me to go to another place and buy a hand splint and I would have to wear them to bed and said they are nicely done and not as bad as I would imagine. Im going to get mine covered in some nice wetlook pvc so I can look hardcore Scarlett Johannson from Iron Man 2 while wearing them..

Thats about it for me. Work has been good and busy although today Saturday which is normally my busiest day had turned into a slack day so I have done lots of odd jobs around the apartment, weeding my pots etc and cleaning up in preparation of winter.
And that is only around the corner now.

My week has been one of lots of hot flushes, numb hands, and lack of sleep	my chop chop chicken omellette with avodcado, and peas.	Together Julie Harris and I completed the choreography in 1.5 hours and its awesome